The fears that haunt my nightly dreams
And stalk my waking thoughts
They push, and pull, and get between
And cause these vicious knots
I fight so hard to stay afloat
Out in this sea of fear
The waves they pound against the boat
The shoreline disappears
These memories I still abhor
And every dream that broke
I often think I'll take no more
That on this breath I'll choke
I do my best to keep at bay
The worst of my disease
My illness fights to find its way
A path to its release
I tire often of the thoughts
That keep me up at night
And wish so bad for them to stop
For me to feel alright
The battle has been waging for
What feels like all my l
If I could tell you everything
I swear to god I would
I'd share my thoughts on anything
Until you understood
But that is not reality
Its just not who I am
If that's what brings finality
I'm fine, I understand
If I could change my circumstance
To make your life a breeze
I'd do it, I would take a chance
To help you trust in me
The dice have fallen where they may
The cards have shed no breaks
I can't just will this life to change
I cannot stop the rain.
I've said too much, but you'll agree
I saved the best for last
I may not be your pedigree
I must not have your class
But in my world I'm standing tall
For everything I lack
There's one more